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Jun. 15th, 2004 @ 03:36 am (no subject)
Current Mood: awakeawake
Current Music: Mizz Cori, "Quiver"
Are You HOT or NOT?

kinky isn't a feather...its using the whole damn chicken! and you kno it. you are so kinky that even you are afraid of yourself sometimes.
kinky isn't a feather...its using the whole damn
chicken! and you kno it. you are so kinky that
even you are afraid of yourself sometimes.


What type of SEX do You enjoy?
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Jun. 13th, 2004 @ 01:05 pm (no subject)
suave
You Are The Suave Gay Man


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Jun. 13th, 2004 @ 12:34 pm What's Wrong With Me?
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: Portishead,"Hell is Around the Corner"
What’s wrong with me? I am your typical adolescent homosexual. I’m 19 years old, unemployed, broke, and I have a drinking problem. I am aware that I have a problem, but for some reason I do nothing to fix it. Why? Why do I continue to let MYSELF down? Let’s forget about what my actions have caused my friends and family…I need to face the reality of the effects they have on me. After all, it is my life that I’m fucking up. So what the hell am I going to do about it? This is my plan for the next six months of my life…
First, drop out of the scene. I don’t want to…at all…but I’m running rampant. It’s the only way I’ll be able to attempt to maintain my focus. Second, get a fucking job! I’m being a bum. That’s not the way I was brought up. Sandersons are not bums. It’s bad enough being the only fag in the history of the family, let me not blaspheme the name anymore! Third, pay back everything I owe to everyone immediately. Once I get money of course. I’ve become such a loser it’s not even funny. Next, I need to take full advantage of the help in which I have been offered and save up some mad cash. I don’t need any more clothes…I don’t need anything that is frivolous and has no purpose. That’s my major downfall when it comes to handling money. I think that just because I have a little cash I can go buy an island. Half of the shit I buy is just that, shit. I don’t even use it. Fifthly, I need to get healthy. I am so not in shape right now. Sure im skinny…but I look deathly ill. Not cute. I need to star a daily…uhm…weekly workout regimen. I need to eat better. I need to stop biting my nails. It’s gross. I wanna go to school. I don’t know for what and where, but I miss learning….I should have finished high school. I skipped my senior year and took the easy way out and what do I have to show for it? I probably wouldn’t have been out of the closet…so I guess that’s the only good thing that came out of that. I need to get to know my parents. I need to succeed at something, for myself and for them. I need to stop taking advantage of them and the kindness of others. I need to help myself. Help myself to a good life…get myself on the right track for once. I have fucked up so many times in my life and always placed the blame on others. I need to stop kidding myself is what I need to do.
This past year has really been a wake up call for me. My DUI. My ex. My job. And I am the one who decided the outcome of everything. Now look where it’s gotten me. Back to square one. Over and over and over…it’s over. I need to do something about my life. I need a goal. My plan was to sit down here and determine that goal, but I cant do that until I determine myself. If that makes any sense. I’m going to take the next several weeks and try to do that, try and find myself. I know what I want…what I want to do…where I want to be. But how I'm going to do it all I don’t know. That’s what I need to determine. Just like in Jerry McGuire, I need to help me help me. And when I do, be ready. It’ll be a fun ride. But I can’t do it without doing this first. I cant do it without you, Mom and Dad, Heather, Diane…all of my friends. I still need your support…your advice, your criticism (Heather). I can’t do it without you. So, thank you for everything that you’ve already done and that you continue to do. I love you.
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Apr. 7th, 2004 @ 11:21 am FINALY!!!
I finaly got some pictures uploaded from Yolanda's party so long ago.....here they are!!


Diane fashionista74 and her new dog, Bowie!


Me and crazy 'ole cock-eyed Jaunita....Love ya big baby!!


Miss Juanita and her lesbian lover, Enit groovin!


Yolanda!


Diane and her lil puppy foo foo!


Me and Bowie!


Stupid Smile:)

*k.luvya.bye*
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Apr. 7th, 2004 @ 01:29 am Nanee Nanee Boo Boo
Current Mood: nostalgicnostalgic
Current Music: Madonna, "Nothing Fails"
OMFG!!! My mom bought me the Madonna tickets for my birthday!!! Hooray!! We're going to the August 2nd show in Miami and staying in Madonna's hotel, the Delano...hopefully. If not there than somewhere else on South Beach. I am utterly ecstatic....I threw up quite a bit in my mouth when I heard the news!!! But what shall I wear and how shall I do my hair?!?! You will have to help me come up with something FLAWLESS!!!!! (My mom says no drag though:(...bitch's just jealous)

Love you all!!
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Apr. 7th, 2004 @ 01:26 am Not A Gold Digger


You Are Not a Gold Digger


You go out of your way to take care of everything in your life.

Including money - which you've got plenty of, thank you very much.

And you have no intentions of being a trophy girlfriend for some bald guy.

Just make sure that hottie you met isn't scheming to be your boy toy!

As a successful woman like you knows, gold digging goes both ways these days.





Are You A Gold Digger? Take This Quiz :-)




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Mar. 31st, 2004 @ 03:36 am DEVISTATION!!!!!
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
Current Music: Madonna(Featuring Massive Attack), "I Want You"
OMFG!!!! Madonna tickets have already been sold out?!?! And I never even heard announcments for them! But tis all good, for she has added another show and tickets go onsale sat....I MUST GO!!! and I WILL!!!!

So, I went to the Independent Bar on saturday (like usual) and had a blast....If Yahoo wasent such a bitch, I'd post some pictures. But I will have more uploaded soon.....even from Yo's party!

Does anyone know LJ member
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OMFG!!!! Madonna tickets have already been sold out?!?! And I never even heard announcments for them! But tis all good, for she has added another show and tickets go onsale sat....I MUST GO!!! and I WILL!!!!

So, I went to the Independent Bar on saturday (like usual) and had a blast....If Yahoo wasent such a bitch, I'd post some pictures. But I will have more uploaded soon.....even from Yo's party!

Does anyone know LJ member <username="k0es">....? I'm so in love!!! He's so fucking ador-a-blah and gorgeous......and such a sweet kid!! ::sigh::

Well kittens...I'm tired. I love ya kids.
Matt
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Mar. 25th, 2004 @ 02:00 am "and I know I can feel glad when I get in a bad mood....
Current Mood: excitedexcited
Current Music: Madonna, "Love Profusion"
....and the world can look so sad, only you make me feel good."

MADONNA IS GOING ON TOUR AGAIN!!!!!

Thats right kids, her Madge-isty will be appearing at the American Airlines Arena in Miami, Florida on August 1, 2004!!! I must go....I was unable to attend the Drowned World Tour and I was devistated. It is IMPERATIVE that I go to this concert!!! The first leg of the duelly named "Re-Invention Tour" kicks off May 27th in Los Angeles.

For those of you who may not know, Madonna is like a mother to me. Nearly everything I know about life I've learned from her. LOL. She's been with me from birth and will continue to do so. She is my biggest inspiration and role model. I love her, dearly, so much so that everytime I see her on television I weep. LOL. I don't know why, but it happens. I know it's cheesey...but I really really love her with all of my heart!

Hope to see you all in Miami 8/1/2004!!

<3 My Lovelies.....
Matt
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Mar. 21st, 2004 @ 01:40 pm "Mutha fuckas wanna get with me, lay with me, love with me.......all....right!"
Current Mood: ecstaticecstatic
Current Music: PEACHES, "Set it Off"
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!

PEACHES IS COMING TO ORLANDO!!!!!!!

I fucking love her.....she's crazier than HELL!! She's coming to Back Booth on April 26th! Tickets are only $10 and everyone must go.....shes so great......

Anywho.....I went to a party at my crazy friend Yo's house last night. All da hos and bitches, bitches and hos from work were there. Diane from women's fragrance was there....Mark(the guy from shoes who Stephen harrasses...more drama there), Rebecca from Clinique and her boyfriend were there, Kristi from Clinique, her boyfriend and a friend of theirs(who was tall rough and kinda handsome and kept makin crazy eye contact with a hoe) were there, ole crazy cock-eyed, sticky fingered Miss Juanita and her girlfriend Eatit(Eanit) were there, my sister <3Heather and her minnie micro pimp boyfriend Travis were there, and me and my best friend Diane fashionista74 were there. Yo's pregnant and she just got her divorce finalized!! CONGRATS YO! We watched the Chapelle Show DVD and then smoked....got our drank on with the bottle of Southern Comfort that I brought and smoked a lil more. After giving all of the party a tour of the backyard to see Yolanda's inherrited pet peacock RuPaul, Diane and I made our way back in to the party to smoke more and dance to some old school Method Man with my sister, Miss Juanita and her lesbian lover. It was the bomb diggie! I was quite tippsy and even more red-eyed and smiley. I took some fun pictures and will have them posted once i develop them. It's a good thing I didnt have to go to work today...Id be callin my ass in:)

Well....I need ta hop in da shower and clean my crunked ole dirty ass off....I'ma holla back atch'yall!!

<3,
Matt
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Mar. 20th, 2004 @ 01:26 am I'm The Elite:)
Current Mood: gigglygiggly
Current Music: Lil Kim, "Queen Bitch"
Elite
WOW! What a suprise! You're an "Elite
Queer." Everyone knows you, you're
beautiful, always in style, mommy and daddy buy
you everything, And the most popular in the gay
scene


What kind of queer are you?
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Apparently I'm an elite queer....as if we all didnt know how much of a VIP I was...HA!
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